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Apr 20Liked by A. Wilder Westgate

Sending you soooo much love, A! I, too, and feeling like I'm in a season of coming home to myself also aided by medication and I'm so glad for access! I hope you continue to come home to yourself and that you kick off your shoes a stay awhile.

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Thank you so much, Ashleigh! I'm behind on my reading here, but I've seen some of your updates about how well you're feeling lately, and I'm just so glad for you!

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Apr 17Liked by A. Wilder Westgate

I really dig the shake up into "flow with the go!" I think this was also a perfect way to describe your experience of being able to do more with the energy you feel on your meds. Flowing with the go (energy). So glad you are feeling better and hope you continue to recover and feel at home in your body. I too go through periods of nervous system overload, followed by flare-ups of pain, fatigue and overall malaise. It feels brutal at times, like my home (body) has become inhospitable...even as I know my body is really trying to help me come back to myself. I also loved the photo of the fog-shrouded forest. Thanks for sharing all this goodness.

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I'm so glad someone understood what I was going for there, because after I typed it I was second guessing myself.

It definitely does feel brutal sometimes, but I'm trying to get better at seeing it as a call for help (since that's what it is) and respond in kind[ness].

I also second guessed that picture, since it wasn't necessarily very representative of the essay, but I wanted to share it anyway. So I'm glad I'm also getting a bit better at second guessing myself and doing the thing I want anyway. 😅

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Apr 17Liked by A. Wilder Westgate

I can identify with all the second-guessing...so glad you went with your original, essential self impulse!

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Apr 16Liked by A. Wilder Westgate

I love stopping to celebrate the days when things work, or when you just feel fucking good for once, because it's so so easy to get trapped in the other days (I know I'm preaching to the choir here). Here's to more of those on your horizon!

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Yes!

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Apr 16Liked by A. Wilder Westgate

Eclipse day was rough. I'm definitely still feeling the exhaustion since I didn't slow down at all when it was necessary. I've got calendar events in my calendar this Sunday that say "DO NOT SCHEDULE ANYTHING!!!" But luckily I think my new MS meds are at least keeping me at baseline because I've not dealt with a ton of other symptoms. Fingers crossed!!!

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I think I need to start scheduling no schedule days. It just makes sense. I'm glad you're managing okay!

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Apr 16Liked by A. Wilder Westgate

I'm just glad you guys had a good time. I felt awful that we didn't leave the park end you couldn't get in.

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You were all set up! It's not your fault we were late and it was full. We had meant to leave earlier but I just couldn't. We missed being able to share it with you, but I definitely didn't want you to leave the park!

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